Sometimes I think what is life in general just a bunch of webs of relationships heart ache and trust and lies. I am not just talking about sexual relationships my reader I am talking about friendships as well. You may be thinking ok, how is she thinking up all this stuff? Well it came to me one night as I stood on the dance floor in my favorite club that we are all either lust driven, emotionally driven or trying to fill the void of our childhood left in us.
Ok you are thinking right about now I am guessing what the hell is this stuff I want a romance or sex story ok chill you will get it just let me explain. So I was watching my girl friend dance watching her body thinking she was so hot. Then thinking its funny how we changed just a year ago I was dating my ex boy friend whom I was going to marry. However, I am so glad I didn't for the simple fact I have has a lot of sexual experience too.
One day I was rubbing my legs down with bengay they hurt from motorcycling and having eight hours of sex the night before. We did everything from strapon sex to double dildo to fingering everything in every room. Then I had an inch on my so I took the hand with the bengay not thinking and inch my inch it touched my clit and burned. My girl friend being daring did the same and then we rubbed each others clits until we got off.
She even went down on me and flicked mine wondering how it teased. I was like oh my god what did I do? Well I learned one thing it was amazing just amaze my clit was so sanative I came so hard I wanted to scream. Anyway a word of advice don't put your mouth down there my girl friend couldn't get her mouth to stop burning for four hours.
Then next week, my best friend tells me she tried scope dam that was a little better she said her mouth was mint when she ate her ex out. She told me how her girl friends clit had rose to a aroused little nub and how she would suck it in with her mouth gently gliding it over her teeth. She loved it she said they both were in heaven.
Well maybe sex can bring us all together cause for the next few months that is all we joked about. I think on this as I walk slowly over to my girl friend on the dance floor she was wearing a red dress shirt and jeans. I started to dance with her and the music was all around me I got lost in it and forgot about my thoughts can't get you out of my head came on and I danced to it.
Well later that night I went home and started to floor around stripped on web cam while men watched and I laughed thinking then can never have me cause I will never sleep with another man. Just as I said that and was ready to go to bed a friend of mind called me in pain her boy friend had just dumped her. Just the week before she had told me how they were in love and have great sex every day and she loved doggie and the feel of his dick going in and out of her. God yuck. I am thinking as I turn on the radio and scan the songs love songs how taken over the world. I ran into the other room and turned on the computer to more dating sites I gave.
We decided it would be best for us to play a board game and talk to get away from love. She was really depressed. So we sat there and talked. Now I had always liked her but she was straight so I never went there. Suddenly she started kissing me and ripping my clothes off and she started to flick my clit and suck it so hard and fast needing to do this compelled to do this. Now the whole time I was think oh shit my girl friend she is going to kill me.
Then I slid her on her back and I sucked and fingered her fast so she came quickly so I could get home to my girl friend and forget this ever happy and pray she never found out. Well she never did because I realized I wasn't happy and I left her for my best friend. Three weeks later.
Wow it never ends does it so my long search for what ever I am searching for has to continue through the long blackness of night. Some nights I sit up in part of my research on sex and talk to people in the Yahoo chat rooms. It any whir is bursting with cyber and cam sex its Yahoo. I guess some people are alone or rejected and need sexual release and that is there form sadly.
Is it lust that keeps us moving on or is it something greater love maybe or the human instinted to have a life partner to mate and have kids and create a since of security. I remember one time I was online on Yahoo caming with this woman she wouldn't stop IMing me acting like we were dating when we weren't I was like go away and wanting me to show my self on cam nude. I really don't see the point it pushing your self to do something for some one else that is agents your morals.
Morals are a funny thing they can make you or break you one min you can say you will never do something then in your next breath you will do it like a little girl saying she won't have candy but then she has it. Or some one that says I will go on a diet then doesn't. Then main question is why do we do this to each other and more importantly to our selves? I ask my self this every time I refuse some one something now don't know why just do.
The bigger question is why do we hurt the ones we love through break ups. I think our society loves learning through pain look at boxing and wwe for example. Piano mixed with sexy women to make it all look good sadly. Just a few thoughts on sex for you to think about in general thought I would write out my thoughts for you my dear reader to read.